Stating……

…..the bleedin’ obvious, I have Cancer. I am not saying this for any reason other than to tell myself that its ok not to feel on top of the world and Little Miss Sunshine all of the time.

I am bombarding my body with toxins. My bones ache, my skin is sore, my body is tired and all in all I feel pretty lousy. Nothing tastes good any more and I have lost my appetite. Most of all I am frustrated at not having the strength and energy to do the things I want to and YES right now I am feeling very sorry for myself.

It will pass I will get my positive mental attitude back but I think I have to accept that it is OK not to feel great all of the time.

Yesterday ended up as being a bit of a write off and I fear the same for today. My lovely generous brother has planned a Mother’s Day family treat for today but quite honestly I don’t think I am up to it, I am sure everyone will understand.

I shall try and perk up for Mothering Sunday.

Details of which therapist to choose will have to go on hold, I am afraid, so don’t go needing to find one over the weekend, just hold fire!

Normal service to be resumed on Monday.

Have a good weekend.

Deborah x

Scores on the board

Physical Health = 5.5 (I’m sure it could be a lot worse)
Mental Health = 6

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11 thoughts on “Stating……

  1. Hey Deb just remember that the results for the tests so far are looking good. There is bound to be some payback and for you it’s this weekend. No doubt by next week you will be back on track. Oh by the way you inspired me to join Tut to get positive messages from the universe. I sending you one right now. Laters Angela.

  2. Hey, where’s my positive, nagging, dynamic sister gone? Ok I’ll let you off. Come on Deb, if anyones got a right to feel crap it’s you, just know that we are here with you, we love you and will ride the storm with you. It will pass. XXX

  3. Hope you don.t feel you have to stay upbeat for all of us following your blog. You have every right to feel sorry for yourself at times. We will all stay positive for you. take care of yourself and Colin the same xx

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